On Hope/Optimism and Busy Weekends
Back when I was working through IIH, there were some weekends when I wasn't busy. I didn't have to work during those weekends, and I didn't have any errands to run. During those weekends, I could spend hours each day practicing and therefore advance a lot. However, there were also weekends when I was very busy. Maybe I had to work, or maybe I had a lot of errands. Regardless, I couldn't spend a lot of time in my room practicing the exercises of IIH. When I couldn't practice nearly as much as I wanted to, I felt my progress was slow. When I felt my progress was slow, I'd lose hope and become pessimistic. This would make me not want to bother trying at all. Sometimes, I'd even fall into despair. Since despair is an unpleasant feeling, I'd try to escape from my despair, perhaps by allowing myself to become immersed in television or the pleasure of eating junk food. Of course that would make everything worse. Reflecting back on this, I learned t...